Judge 379

Courtroom Drama. Waiting to be called. "Here, your honor". All that time worrying, "what's my first impression going to be like?". Cattle call. New movie in town, coming up, Could I work, while in house arrest? Wait. Wait until the judge approves.

And later in the coffee shop (don't tell anyone I was there after court), I decided I was worried about working. On the front, I was pleased. Ordinarily, I am unaware what the freedom to work will mean for me.

My scounselor told me monday I seemed horribly lonely. Monday, late, after waiting so long in court. Waiting to hear that I was done, before even seeing the judge again after the recess for two hours to let him get something done. Before seeing the Judge, and having come to a decision.

Instead I wait for the next courtdate to be announced and to come, and the attorney on my side will try in the mean time to get me free enough to work.

Today I got a call that my monitor was offline a while. No excuyse, no reason. I don't have a clue why. Also, that I owe 810 dollars. In toe weeks, I'm supposed to pay. Laughable, totally absurd. This or Jail? Is this the question? No way I got so behind. So behind even though I don't work, and am not allowed to leave for teh long enough time to be able to. I can't go to a job. I owe 810 dollars. I've been saving, and I know I only dipped a few dollars into my saavings for teh monitor. I know I didn't get this behind. 810. Could three months really be what I owe? Could I ever come up with this?

810. And no job. Either that or jail. Two weeks will decide if I'm in violation of my pretrail release.